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Hintayin ang hating gabi

Kung kailan ang mundoy humihimbing

At ang buwan at mga tala lamang

Ang siyang magiging saksi

Lumusong sa dagat

At pagurin ang sarili

Sa unti-unting pagsisid
Sa kaibuturan ng karimlan

Isang hangganang di makakamtan

Kung lupaypay na ang buong katawan

Ay humiyaw ng malakas

At ilabas ang lahat ng luha

Maski pawang wala namang nangyayari

Maski wala nang nadarama

Hayaan ang diwa
Sa kataway panandaliang kumawala

At sumayaw sa malungkot

Na himig ng pagiyak

Ng iba pang mga nalulunod na nilalang

Sa pagmulat ng mga mata

Kataway sa dalampasigan
Ay naianod na

Upang muling ipagbunyi

Ang bukang liwaway

(At sa nahaharap na hating gabi

Kung kailan ang mundo'y humihimbing

At ang buwan at mga tala lamang
Ang siyang magiging saksi

Ay muling magpalunod at magpaalon

Sa silakbo ng damdamin)

Hot streak

Lost three of them just this sem. The sad thing is, they're all tresses.

Harlem Nocturne

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1yYJc1_LMU

Trench coat, felt hat, and the good ol' magnifying glass.

Magic Temple

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pcx59bTqLyY

"anong dapat mong gawin sa buto para tumubo?...

...pakawalan mo muna, buksan ang iyong palad at ihulog sa lupa"

 - Jubal (Magic Temple)

Surge Fist

Words need not slip from your lips

For your beckoning smile

Enthralls even the astral angels

How much more then

Is it for a mere mortal to resist?

Of the truths in this world

Only of your beauty is unfazed

Forged from the extremes, fire and ice

Such unworldly jewel

That gods themselves desire

Hair that blankets the night sky

Eyes that illuminate the day

You who make eternity stop
Incarnating the heavenly skies

Making dawn and dusk unite

If to gaze upon you is a sin

Then let perdition upon me befall

This feeble body may rot and perish

But my spirit, ever will hold

For my soul only with you can be at ease

Daisuki na kimi ni (Oda Kazumasa)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Fxn27V2Yhk

wind flower

One of the sanest lines I heard so far in school (coming from a girl):

"Niloloko lang natin sarili natin" or was it "Wag na nating lokohin sarili natin" (on answering an exam)

I forgot the exact words, but they're somewhere along those lines.

If you lack the knowledge, at least accept the fact that you are ignorant. Let your ignorance guide/motivate you in acquiring that knowledge you lack. 

torocci

the swirls and twirls 
that enchanted you once,
now seem to be just plain straight lines.
of the dreamy rainbow
that made you gasp,
the colors now to you are bland.

the price that you pay
for staring at it all day
made you disillusioned.

for the painting 
that then made you smile,
now won't even make you
draw a sigh.

Out of nothing 3

Ang konsepto ng pakikisama ay isa sa mga pinahahalagahang katangian nating mga Pilipino. Sa pakikisama sa ibang tao, handa tayong makiisa at makisimpatya sa anumang kalagayan na dinadanas ng ating kapwa. Kadalasan pa nga, dulot ng lubos lubos na pakikisama, ay handa tayong magtiis ng hirap para sa ating kapwa. Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, pinipilit pa din natin ang pag ngiti sa kabila ng sakit, pagod, at hirap.

Nakatutuwa ang konsepto ng pakikisama dahil ipinakikita lang nito na tunay nga na likas sa ating mga tao ang pakikihalubilo. Kung sabagay, hindi tayo mabubuhay ng nag iisa lamang. Ayon nga kay John Donne:


"No man is an island, entire of itself... any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bells tolls; it tolls for thee."

Siyempre, dahil tao tayo ay kaya nating ilagay ang ating mga sarili sa kalagayan ng ating kapwa tao, 'nakakarelate tayo' ika nga.

Nakaiinis lang isipin na minsan, ang konsepto ng pakikisama ay ine-equate sa konsepto ng imahe o panlabas na katangian. 

Natural lamang sa atin na ipresenta ang ating mga sarili sa ating kapwa bilang mga magaganda at mga poging nilalang. Kumbaga, minamarket natin ang ating mga sarili sa ibang tao. Sino ba naman ang gustong mag mukhang panget sa mundong ayaw sa mga panget. Masokista ka siguro kung okay lang sayo yun. Pero dapat nating tandaan na ang panlabas na anyo ay isa lamang mababaw na sukatan ng ating pagkatao. Nangingibabaw pa din ang kagandahan at kapogian ng ating ugali at asal. Sa kabila nito, hindi mapagkakaila na may mga taong mas pinahahalagahan ang kanilang kababawan. Kung sabagay, ang ating panlabas na imahe ang unang bagay na nabinibigyang pansin ng ating kapwa.

Ang pakikisama sa kapwa sa pamamaraang mababaw ay pagsisinungaling. Ito ay pagsisinungaling di lang sa kapwa, pati na din sa sarili. Tinatalo nito ang esensya ng kabuluhan ng pakikisama. Tinatanggalan nito ang pakikisama ng elemento ng sinseridad. Sa madaling salita, hipokrito ka kung ganito ka. Mas uunahin mo pa ba ang iyong imahe kaysa sa tunay mong saloobin? Ngingiti ka pa din ba kahit galit na galit ka na? Tatango ka pa din ba kahit ayaw mo na? Pipilitin mo pa din ba kahit hindi mo na kaya? Bakit hindi mo na lang sabihin yung totoo, pinahihirapan mo lang yung sarili mo at niloloko mo yung kapwa mo. Siguro naman, hangad din ng iyong kapwa ang iyong ikabubuti. Ikaw nga yung nakikisama sa kanya e, kumbaga tinatanawan ka pa niya ng utang na loob. Huwag mo naman ito sayangin sa iyong kababawan. 

 

still a lock without a key

It's kinda frustrating that things are still the same for me. Though I'm already realizing my dream of becoming a doctor in DLSHSI, I still feel unsure about a lot of things. Maybe its because that I'm pushing myself somehow, like having one foot on the dock and the other on the boat. It's just that I think haven't matured yet (?), that I still am lacking something that is crucial for the situation I am in right now. Honestly, I'm aware of what's wrong with me but I just keep on denying it. If I don't do something about it I'll surely end up making the same mistake I did back in high school and college. But how can I solve things up if I still don't have an answer to my problem? Should I make an answer for myself rather than seek it? But that would be hard...

 I'm sick of this. Gosh, I hate myself.                

paikot-ikot (vicious circle)

sa bawat siklo ng pagsilang at paghimbing
ilang tala kaya ang sana'y nakapiling
sapagkat mga paay balisang balisa
at isip namay sadyang pariwara

cyberbully

freedom equated to power isn't freedom at all

where is the democracy that you keep on boasting about?

SHAME

Of cosplay and Ferris wheel

like a piece of jigsaw
that fits perfectly
with the contour
of its surroundings

yet

glaringly disrupts
the whole picture
for its
disparate
lines and colors

as if it is a black smudge
in a pristine silk robe
befitting a king

THANK YOU Seane, Derrick, Gelo, Felise, Rocielle

Paano maipapakita na ika'y masaya

Kung ang ngiti’y pangkaraniwan, laan sa madla

Di ba’t masmainam kung labi’y mapagtimpi

At siyang damdaming dakila ang babakas sa bawat ngiti

Ngunit sa mga matang mababaw  mistulang manhid

Ang ‘di pag ayon sa nais mabatid

Sa gusto’y ninanasang masapit

Sa ayaw ay pinipilit ang pagpikit

 

There's no life I know to compare with pure imagination

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhaYvHf9fVM

In a nutshell, On Frequency, & Of Uniqueness

Why Does it Take a lot

To be Concise

While it Takes so Little

To avoid The point?

Wouldn’t A fact

Be More reassuring

If it is Commonplace

Rather than Being Unusual?

‘Exceptional’

 isn’t really a good Synonym for

‘Excellent’

Reaching You

Luha

Bago pa man mabuo

Sa hangiy tuluyang tumungo

At tumaas ng tumaas

Sa kalangitan

Hanggang maging

Abuhing  ulap

Tangan tangan

Itong ulan

Na sanay

Maski isang patak

Sa pisngi mo'y humalik

Habang umiidlip

Ang mapangakit

Na bahaghari

Paranoia

the chains that bind
hold the feet no longer
yet with every step
the ringing, the clashing
echoes on forever

Out of nothing 2

Letrato

Halos lahat na yata ng tao ay nagmamayari ng kamera. Ganun ba talaga kahalaga ang mga letrato para sa mga tao? What’s in a picture? The colors? The faces? The sceneries? Kung sabagay, kung saan mang letrato ka involved at makakarelate, may makukuha ka nga namang frozen memories. Bahal na yung utak mo na mag defroze nito, at paglaruan ang mga sandaling lumipas na. Sa huli, paggunita din pala sa nakalipas ang gamit nito, puwera na lang sa tunguhing pang komersyal. Mauuwi din pala ang lahat sa napakaklasikong pagiisip na tumutumbok sa kahalagahan ng ‘kasaysayan’. Yun nga lang, lahat ba ng letratong na i-develop, nasa computer, o nasa memory stick ay may ‘saysay’. Isa pa, kung sa bawat oras na lumilipas ay meron kang letratong magpupugay sa iyong makulay na buhay, will the pictures then still serve their purpose? Para san pa ang pag re-reminisce kung wala ka namang ire-reminisce? Naaalala ko tuloy yung diary ko nung grade school pa ako. 'Nung umaga, kumain ako. Nung tanghali, kumain ako. Nung gabi, kumain ako tapos natulog na.' Sa next entry, ganun ulit yung nakasulat. Dinaan ko nga lang sa stickers yung diary na yun e.

Halfway There

Two down, another two to go.

Karinate Star

Karina,

Do you know what carina is? It's a sternal bone in birds. It helps the birds in their flight, providing leverage. Some birds don't have it, that's why there are flightless birds.

Carina is also a constellation. It has the second brightest star in the night sky, 'Canopus'.

http://www.outerspaceuniverse.org/media/carina-nebula-wide-view.jpg

There may be shooting stars... But there's also a 'Flying Star'...

Once and Nevermore

Walking in a shoreline trodden by tears

Makes it not a wonder

Why the sea is salty

And sometimes even bitter.

With every step

It disappears behind

Leaving not a trace

To grace the memory of time.

To think

Of what came before

This filthy pair of feet

Of the thousands that drowned.

Makes it a wonder

Why the ocean

So calm and serene

In dusk’s full grandeur.

Flashback

This is a picture of the roof inside the room where I stayed in while boarding in my previous boarding house. This part of the roof is exactly within the area above my bed (its a double deck bed and mine is the top one). Whenever it rains, I get soaked. It started with little drizzles but it eventually worsened, ending up like a kid's flowing urine (it's also yellowish since the roof is old and dirty). Fortunately, the water ends up only in one end of the bed and not in the middle. I just huddle myself up to avoid getting wet when it rains. My landlady knows about it, but never really did anything about it. She just told me to switch rooms whenever it rains. But I never did so since I find it a hassle, especially since I'm a student and I don't like to move my things back and forth as rain starts and ends.

people come and go

today i'll greet hello
tomorrow you'll bid goodbye
like a gush of wind
in the stillness of the night