I am no Julius Caesar and I have no legion in my command. But I have my parents, my siblings, and the merciful grace of God.
One day, I'll recount this day as the herald of either my victory or defeat in life. But there will be no regrets since I know I stood for what I believe. I already received a lot of messages and calls from my concerned relatives admonishing me for my decision. I have nothing for them but apologies from the bottom of my heart. I know the sacrifices they made to put me in the place where I am now. They could have chosen not to care. And for that I am forever grateful. However, I know myself more than anyone and I know I chose the right thing to do. And so I will fight for it.
Naawa lang ako sa mga magulang at mga kapatid ko na nadadamay pa sa sigalot na ito. Kung sana lang sa akin na lang ituon ang lahat ng galit.
I remember the first time I made a big decision for myself and that was when I chose to shift courses from Engineering to the Social Sciences. It wasn't a very difficult choice but what made it cumbersome were my parents' and relatives' opinions on the whys and hows. But I knew I needed to stand firm since it was very clear to me that the very decision will affect my future. Until one night my parents called for me and talked to me about it and ending the discussion saying that they're there for me regardless of my choice. I cried silently that night. There were no regrets for me.
History repeated itself, and this time I chose to take my medical licensure exam by March of next year instead of taking this September. Being faced with the same problem, I want to stand firm with this decision. I'd rather bear the transient pain than be haunted forever by the what ifs. And so I'll cry silently to myself at night for the next 6 months.
My indecisiveness already cost me to lose a very dear person.
Limitless are the stars despite a lifetime's gaze
for time wont stoop to anything and goes unfaltered, unfazed
if i can count each one and memorize their names
would that make a difference to the queen of fate?
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hindi ko alam (o hindi ako sigurado ?) kung kaibigan ko ba o kalaban ang oras.
pero alam ko na di naman siya hihinto maski ano pa man ang gawin ko.
sadyang mayroong mga bagay lang talaga siguro na dapat matutunang kalimutan? o kaya nama'y ikahon na lang at itago sa isang aparador ng isipan... tulad na lamang ng isang lumang letrato, isang pag gunita sa panahong ilado.
ang kahapon, ngayon, at bukas ay pawang magkakaibang mundo na nagtatagpo sa isang punto ng oras... ngunit kung saan, ay hindi ko pa nakikita. only time will tell??? dehadong dehado naman talaga haha
halos 3 buwan na akong walang wrist watch haha... bat kasi tumatakbo pa ang oras, e yung sa aking relos matagal nang huminto. "ill stop the world and melt with youuuuu....."
but before anything else... nako.... pumasa sana ako... live Jesus in our hearts, forever!
It’s not like a pack of M&Ms that got ransacked by a
pesky cockroach that you can just throw away easily and be replaced by another
one from the nearest 7/11 outlet. No, it’s not like that... it will never be.
Nako talaga... it has been a trip to rainbow lane. Pero... Well things change through time. Time, the saddest being.
