candy crush

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RtH02InlKP4

HE human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;--
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed.
Read more at http://www.poetry-archive.com/b/evening_solace.html#MOzOQvUzWLBH0WZl.99

 "The human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;­
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed..."

 - Charlotte Brontë, Evening Solace

HE human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;--
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed.
Read more at http://www.poetry-archive.com/b/evening_solace.html#MOzOQvUzWLBH0WZl.99

HE human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;--
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed.
Read more at http://www.poetry-archive.com/b/evening_solace.html#MOzOQvUzWLBH0WZl.99

HE human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;--
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed.
Read more at http://www.poetry-archive.com/b/evening_solace.html#MOzOQvUzWLBH0WZl.99

http://www.metahistory.org/images/fiddlehead.jpg

Tears are falling

But it feels nothing

My body’s all numb

Or is it that I’m dumb

I just want to go back

To a room without a clock

ang apoy sa mga mata'y matamlay na
wala nang mailuluha pang esperma
mitsa ng diwa'y upod na upod
kaunting ihip pa't sa dilim malulunod

pharmazoned

bakit ganoon nanaman? ako ba'y sadyang walang pag-asa sa iyo?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UskkwKmccGU

Oh Pharma... 

How I love you so much

Please love me back

Please, please...

And I'll be dancing with you the whole night

To the the sweet music

Of antibiotics, anti-fungals, and anti-virals

I need, I need your love!

wear 'em as you please

no wonder why I'm like this, it all starts young...

 

a game of chance

walking on thin ice
should one walk on still?
for when the ice
beneath the feet brakes
what was shattered
will never be mended
a wound that will no longer heal
holding on to a gossamer of hope
that plunging in the cold water
would numb the body
to the point of feeling warm
should one walk on still?
or should one risk no further?

Oh so love!

this rose of mine can never be subdued
in its pot ever is it restless
in its bed never does it brood   
its petals pierce the heavens
and its roots penetrate the earth
making wonders as it leavens
even the faintest stroke of mirth 

lesser than a blade of grass

 http://www.waterytimes.com/Images/8/GrassSkyWallpapers3.jpg

bearing the burden

and crippled
by the weight of earth
with a frail body
you stand unwavered
continuously reaching
stretching your arms
towards the endless sky

why am I so weak? my heart falters and I cannot speak.

Buwagin and bulok na sistema

http://manilamommy.com/maring-napoles-pork-barrel/

puddles

a gentle voice
within this tempestuous rain
only felt and never heard
touches those
who's hearts are void
faceless beings,
forsaken, for nought
whom once also dreamt
and dared

a gentle voice
within this tempestuous rain
only felt and never heard
giving hope
to those whose
faith have waned
that even if
there maybe no rainbows
in a world of shadows
after a rain

still...
there are
pieces of heaven
found on earth
once the sky clears
and the stars reflect
their light 

100th

yet.

"Na kaya nawalá'y dinatnan ng sigwâ
Ang lunday sa lawà noóng dakong una." -Rizal

Nasaan na kaya ngayon ang kuwintas ni Maria Clara?

22

As to when and where, I'm eager to know. Though this maybe, I can't avoid being downright oblivious. I always find myself turning a blind eye to everything, may it be right or wrong. I tip my hat off to Ditto Sarmiento.

"Kung hindi tayo kikilos, sino ang kikilos? Kung di tayo kikibo, sino ang kikibo? Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa?"

"Miserable being must find more miserable being. Then he is happy." (not sure if really from Gorky's The Lower Depths as quoted in the movie Lady and the Tramp)

X kasi

I thought that my first year in medicine would end with a solid dot. Ngunit dahil sa taglay kong dugong 'X', akala ko nga lang talaga yun. To think that I would be called upon by our professor to recite in class... last class session na nga namin yun natawag pa ko. Sa buong taon, noon lang talaga ako natawag. I even don't know the answer to the question, which by the way was really easy and basic (on the peripheral pulses). For some reason I was nonchalant about it, maybe because I don't know the answer and I can just admit it. What made me nervous was the remark... 'kung meron na daw ba akong kaibigan.' WOW! IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS. IN MICROPHONE!

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But then again... after the sun, then came the shadow. Sana napansin ni crimson fist. 

Henshin!

http://www.japan-legend.com/wiki/images/6/63/Kr_black.jpg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9O9WMaMg6E

Kung pagbibigyan lang din ako ng pagkakataon, gusto kong maging isang kamen rider. Siyempre, secret identity dapat yun saka dapat may mga kalaban ako na mga kampon ng kadiliman. Sa totoo lang, kapag medyo inaantok ako sa mga lecture sa klase, iniisip ko na biglang may lalabas na mga halimaw sa may tabi ng lecturer (yung biglang sasabog yung pader sa harap tapos uusok...). Yun! Chance! Biglang magkakagulo sa room pero di muna ako magtratransform... maghihintay muna ako ng ilang sandali, baka kasi sakaling meron pang ibang kamen rider bukod sa akin sa mga classmates ko at kung meron man, siya na bahala. Kung ako lang talaga... HENSHIN!

Sana lang after henshin, may power boost at skill boost, wala naman kasi akong alam sa martial arts. Siguro naman di ako agad lulusubin ng kalaban habang ginagawa ko yung ritual ng pagtratransform, standard rule na yun sa lahat ng hero transformations. May background music din dapat para ganahan ako.

Problema nga din pala yung pagliligpit nung kalaban pag natalo na... Ok kung bigla nalang magalalaho yung katawan nila pag natalo sila.

Di din dapat mawala yung love interest ng tagapagtanggol. Importante yun, dapat may inspiration.
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Mahihirapan nga din pala ako sa pagaaral kung araw araw ay may lilitaw na kalaban. Mainam kung once a week lang (ganun din naman yung sa tv, once a week lang pinapalabas) saka kung lilitaw sila kung nasaan ako. Di pa naman ako marunong pumunta sa ibang lugar maliban na lang kung sa school at dorm. Kapag uuwi ako sa probinsya para sa bakasyon, may ceasefire din dapat. Di kasi ako mahilig lumabas ng bahay. Saka kailangan din naman ng bakasyon ng mga halimaw. 

taking the longer route

From up I went down

Then I went back halfway

Walked a few steps diagonally up

Then got back

Just to walk a few steps diagonally down

I slept

From down I went up

Walked to the right

Went back

Walked down halfway

Walked to the right

Then back again

Went back where I started

And walked to the right

I slept

Once again I went up

Walked down diagonally

Then up again

I slept

Only on the fourth day

Did I realize

That  walking in a path

Of an inverted triangle

With a base of a Double arch

Would mean just the same

Don't ask why

I'm being sucked into a wormhole again. I'm finding it hard to differentiate reality from a dream. My only foothold to sanity is the notion that in a dream I'm alone while in reality I'm isolated. Physically different but emotionally the same.  

I'll hasten my passing
to make way for the sun
for the world to behold 
the beauty you must flaunt

Meanwhile...

Human nature. One will only learn when one is on the brink of death. Yet they may argue how can they sustain billions of life without doing so. Still, they got A LOT of heads to do the thinking. Its a given though that they think of themselves first before others.    

http://science.time.com/2013/01/29/the-scariest-environmental-fact-in-the-world/

The quirky idea of inserting USB devices in our own heads to store files may really become the norm someday in the future. Does it come with formatting? Can our precious minds then be hacked? Yun na nga lang yung maipamamana samin ng mga magulang namin saming mga magkakapatid, may posibilidad pang manakaw. Truthfully, its scary.

http://science.time.com/2013/01/24/goodbye-silicon-hello-dna-the-future-of-data-storage/

Sweep up the memories

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGVG4sKLkLs

Sweep, Sweep up the memories. Those old, untidy memories. Broken, mixed-up memories. Of what we had one day.

Sweep, Sweep out the nonsense. That crazy happy nonsense. This world's too old for nonsense. Sweep, just sweep it all away.

Everything in a state of grace. Everything back in its proper place. No more rainbows for us to chase. No more games to play.

Sweep, Sweep out the laughter. There's no more time for laughter. At least, not until after I come back and You know I just may.

- Dr. Seuss' The Cat in the Hat

Awakened from slumber

 http://www.movpins.com/dHQwMTExMTQz/the-shadow-%281994%29/

from the darkness 

i was conceived

in the shadows 

i shall live

To end this all, this is the only viable way that i can think of right now. Kirisute Gomen. To all, I apologize in advance.

Who knows what the shadow knows?

ebbing tide

Sometimes even the idealists do fall to the idea of a hopeless future, succumbing to the vicious cycle of a disenchanting reality. 

http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/TheEeyore

looming end

http://shadowness.com/Crille/charon-2

the night is nigh

and the poor crow cries

for he can see no more

in the sea of shadows

where the ferryman rows

downstream to the gallows

Nakama

Another 2 of them... lost. When you least expect it, it will surely hit. I even thought I was doing pretty well. So much for change huh?

Should I look forward for more? Or rather must I be used to this... not that I am not in the first place.

http://th06.deviantart.net/fs70/200H/i/2011/262/b/a/skeletons_always_cry_at_sunset_by_ultraeast-d4admz6.jpg

If you ever change your mind

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuVnbI5zLM8

Basta sa seat (L/R?)-K1 lang naman ako lagi.

to infinity and beyond!

Dapat ay nagaaral ako sa mga oras na ito. May tatlong eksam na nakalaan sa buong linggo. Ngunit kung saan saan nakararating ang isip ko.

isang tuyong dahong
nagpapatangay sa hangin
walang pakialam
san man nito dalhin
at anuman ang sapitin

Siguro nga ay tuyong tuyo na ang utak ko. Habang tumatagal parang lalo akong nabobobo.

bobo, ulo'y puro
hangin na parang lobo
ano ang sabi ng lolo?
utak daw ay may toyo

TL. True love. Tunay na pagibig. Sabi ni Carl Rogers: unconditional positive regard. 'I extend to you my (unconditional positive) regards' haha.  

pagibig muna bago dota
mauuwi naman sa pag toma 
RAK na lang mga dre
Ice yan tol! pare
 
Matagal na rin akong di nakakapag GG. Pero di ko rin naman talaga gaanong naappreciate yung gameplay at medyo naguguluhan ako. Talong-talo nga ako ng mga nakababata kong kapatid.

piniritong galunggong
sinawsaw sa bagoong
iyong huling hantungan
ay dito sa aking tiyan

Naalala ko nanaman yung nabasag kong bagoong na nakagarapon. Tapos nakakita pa ako ng 2 anghel sa Mcdo nung araw din na iyon. Biruin mo, naging kaibigan ko din yung dalawang iyon!

naamoy mo na ba
ang halimuyak ng hininga
ng isang anghel?
que bien huele, que bien huele

Angel's breath yung polbo na ginagamit dati samin ng aming nanay nung maliit pa kami ng ate ko. Ngayon ay wala na akong nakikitang ganitong brand na itinitinda sa mga mall. Nilalaro ko lang ang polbo noon, kadalasan pa nga ay sa likod na aking tatay yung playground. Saka pag gumamagawa ako ng eroplanong papel ay nilalagyan ko ito ng polbo para pag pinalipad ko ang eroplano ay parang nagiiwan ito ng usok.

enola gay
isnt gay as it says
and little boy 
isnt about fun and toys

Di na rin siguro nakapagtataka kung bakit pinangalanan ang makasaysayang eroplano hango sa pangalan ng ina ng piloto. Maski nanay ko parang bomba din kung magalit sakin kung minsan (minsan lang naman, peace mami!). Pero mas okay siguro kung mas malakas yung dating ng pangalan nito tulad ng: 'wrath of the grim reaper', 'devil's hearse of eternal damnation', 'one way trip to Malebolge', o kaya 'the eight legs of Sleipnir'. Dun sa bomba naman, bakit kaya little boy yung napili? 'Boom shakalaka' nalang sana. Pwede ring Batang X hehehe... 

My Beloved

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Jm4p_HCwKA

glow worms

I am a bit overwhelmed with what happened this night. I just cant believe that my classmates would accept me that easily. I'm really really grateful to them. I also made new friends (I think and I do hope). With all of their enormous effort trying to make me feel that I too 'belong', I still just cant help being the usual 'loser' me.

I'm sorry guys. I know that its unfair.

Even to myself I'm unfair.

Isang bukas na liham

Ngayon na siguro ang huli nating pagkikita. Maski ako ay nabigla sa di inaasahang pangyayari na nagdala sa atin sa sitwasyong ito. Gayundin naman, maaaring di mo napansin na ikaw din ang nagbigay ng huling suntok sa resolusyon nitong katapusan. Pero ayos lang iyon, sigurado naman akong di mo alam ang tinatakbo ng isipan at saloobin ko. Kung sabagay, ako lang naman ang lumikha at nagsimula ng lahat ng ito kung kayat nararapat lang siguro na ikaw naman ang tumapos. Masaklap nga lang, ang katotohanan ay di mo din alam na mayroon tayong sinimulan kahit papaano. Di rin naman kasi ako nagsalita.

Nabubuhay ka sa realidad, ako naman ay sa panaginip. Alam mo ba na ikaw ang panaginip ko? Sa madaling salita ay nabuhay din ako sa realidad nang dahil sa iyo, kahit sa maikling panahon lamang. Itoy buong puso kong ipinagpapasalamat.
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Sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, di ko pa din magawang tapusin ang sulat na ito. Marahil akoy umaasa pa din.

Sideshow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TscxLlhMiig

sadyang napaaga at di man lang nabigyan ng pagkakataon na umiwas

Hibiscus' Scent

ikay isang gumamela
buong pusong sinasalubong
ng iyong mga petalya
ang masiglang banaag
ng haring araw

ako naman ay ang gabi
sa aking pagdating
ikay nagkukubli
habang mahigpit mong niyayakap
ang liwanag na nananatili

ikay isang gumamela
sa bubuyog iyong nilalaan
ambrosyang nagbibigay buhay
sa mga Diyos
nararapat na alay

akoy isang gamugamo
sa liwanag
kailanmay di magpapatukso
mga pakpak handang maging abo
matikman lang ang alak mo

ikay isang gumamela
siya naman ang araw
at ang bubuyog
habang ako ang gabi
at ang gamugamo

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eto pala... isang gumamela
a perfect and complete flower
to show my perfect and complete love for you

sorry Sir Alvin, it may not work this time

2 Milestones in a week

Jan 9 2013

the inevitable happened:

you live in reality
i live in a dream
but my dream is you
then i lived in reality
because of you...
even for just a little time 

Jan 11 2013

was able to fully utilize school's resources, therefore screwed biochem exam 'afterhand'

Kirisute Gomen (Trivium)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYKNm4qMJTc

"I will never be what they
Want me to
I live by my own path in life
No turning
Back now, I won't be held down
Forced into a shallow grave built upon their empty ways
No turning
I will never be what they
Want me to
I live by my own path in life
There's no turning back"

ang iyong salita ay isang awit

sa kaluskos ng mga dahon
ay may isang awit
na sinasabayan ng mga anghel
sa pagtugtog ng alpang bitbit

magalak! mga orehang makasasapit
sa tinig ng bukang liwayway
gayundin ang takipsilim
sa kanyang pagsambit

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mga salitay hangin lamang
na ibinuga ng iyong baga
at binuhay ng iyong natatanging tinig
at di din mapagkakaila
na kung anong isinulat sa hangin
ay dagliang mawawala