If I cannot smell the words

That you’ve been cooking

Tasting them won’t make sense

It's more fun in the Phillipines

there is no best option
one can only choose the lesser evil

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjfI3uSN8DQ

Neko and company

Growing number of friends and memories, delights and disappointments.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9G0-4TWwew

Premature sunset

I am guilty of a blunted affect. I hold on to memories that are black and white. I know that I deeply cherish  the times I've spent with you, considering that we were on our formative years then. You were one of the first friends I've made, one of those who accepted (and understood) my pseudopsychotic tendencies. Even our mothers became kumares haha. Time and priorities however did separate us for quite a long time, long enough for emotions and memories to fade.

I am sorry but I find it really hard to shed a tear. I know it will eventually hit me, and I am afraid that it will hit me hard. But rest assured, when the time comes, my tears for you will be pure and genuine.

I will just smile for you for now.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUyX_KWF67k

lying in a cloud

and seeing more clouds

a monotonous sound

blue and white bound

wondering of violets and greens

or perhaps… of where you’ve been

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=creep+radiohead

waking up
with an unfamiliar set
of eyes looking at
the world
you look in
the mirror
and you flinch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IX9SJNHz9hM

Time and Beyond 1

The origin and the consequent end of life is an unavoidable enquiry of the mind, be it intended or not. Despite the chance or frequent encounters with the matter, a definite answer has never been reached and perhaps will never be. If an answer is indeed possible, there is still no existing means or technology that would give an explanation; the approach is to merely speculate. Thus in this regard, one can only theorize and appeal to what is natural or to the approximate and well accepted truth. For the sake of convenience, from here on the truth would pertain to the natural or universal laws, the tangibles, and consensual ideas/ideologies.

There have been a lot of theories that try to explain the origin of life. One that is widely accepted in the realm of sciences is the primordial soup theory stating that life sprung from the conglomeration of various inorganic substances from space (under certain conditions); support to this is backed by reproducible laboratory experiments. In religion, particularly with the catholic faith, it is said that life came to be when God created the world within seven days. In physics, extending to the very origin of the universe, we have the expanding universe theory or the big bang. Conversely, the antithesis of life, the ultimate end, also has its equal share of theories. This however, being a futuristic entity, holds no firm ground in the present time, having no foundation at all.

A common denominator among these theories, whether appealing to the origin or end, is chaos or disorder. It is both the beginning and end; what started as disorder will also end as disorder. This pattern is very much evident and pervasive in the natural state of things. Every earthly life form started from non-existence prior conception. After conception comes aging and senescence, again leading to non-existence. Does non-existence equate to disorder? Are these two things the same and of equal bearing? Non-existence is the state of nothingness. Order exists with systems working in congruence. Non-existence is not disorder per se but rather is a form or a subset of disorder. It can be argued that the state of nothingness lies in between order and disorder, a gray area between the two.  Indeed there are no systems working in nothingness, but it is also true that with the absence of systems, there is uniformity in nothingness. Uniformity is a form of order. However, order and disorder, in their purest and perfect forms, pertain to the God of good and the God of evil respectively. The state of God-being cannot be attained through an imperfect system. It is beyond the realm of worldly entities. Thus the state of order and disorder can only be approximated, that is, in the form of being and non-being.

Childhood frolic

circa 2003

Who hath given thee thy poison apple?

Where hath thy pale body slumbered?

Who hath lifted thy curse,

Giving love's first kiss?