http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkRN0DMDfZ0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hvds2AIiWLA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlUXV9ePuvM

rather have one to 'commit to uncommit'

Sometimes being with people is the same as being alone... only difference is that it's noisier. Shit. Why are pure intentions met by superficial ones? Are words merely enunciations with no attached meanings? Madaming nagagalit sakin pag hindi ako nagsasalita, wala daw kasi akong 'cooperation'. It may be so, however when I do speak I say what I mean at the moment (I have the tendency to say stupid things when I am nervous, and I'm nervous most of the time). Even when I talk of nonsensical things, I really am being nonsensical. I take other people's words seriously, thinking that they too are being serious with me. The sad thing is that I can't take a hint when someone is just toying with me. I even got scolded once by my parents for being too trustful. The world is full of opportunists who are willing to do just anything (good or bad) to get what they want, even if they have put innocent people at risk. This is the game the world plays; you have to play along if you want to live.

Man... all of this blabber just for unreciprocated thoughts.

 one of those nights when a selfie can be forgiven

#disillusionedidealist

In a vast silent moonlit sea

With waters still as summertide

On the horizon it is you I see

Sitting on a boat, all else abide

Shouting your name but words fail me

Fervent sentiments by ego denied

In a vast silent moonlit sea

With waters still as summertide

By the shore helpless as I can be

A futile steadfast gaze from behind

On the horizon it is you I see

Sitting on a boat, all else abide

To the lorn water my heart I set free

May your craft be stirred be it very mild

In a vast silent moonlit sea

With waters still as summertide

On the horizon it is you I see

Sitting on a boat, all else abide

ba da ba da da da da da da

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UYTLIdjSyc

What's more to come?

Measles by the end of the 2013 and dengue fever by the start of 2014. Then come early February when I experienced pain in the back and lower extremities that prompted me to undertake two ultrasound tests and one CT stonogram. Luckily, everything's normal for now and I only need to do some monitoring. Add to that the pain I feel somewhere within my pericardial cavity... well, figuratively.

My only consolation was the free consultation from my doctor.   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQ5upDOP9JI

awit ng sisne

sa anim na libong bundok
nitong tinatahak ng
hibang na saloobin
hanggan saan kaya ang nararating?

damdamin kaya sa hininga
ay kinakapos din?
unti-unting nananamlay
mitsa ng oras ang kaaway

isang suntok sa buwan
wari ay hiyaw sa kawalan
makaririnig pa kaya
ng alingawngaw ng ipinagsisigawan?