Fullhouse

It's not the group's fault, never was and never will. Besides, I started everything with the wrong foot forward. But I do hope to end it all with the right step.

Right now, I still don't know what to do. It seems that I've ran out of luck. I'm very thankful though that my parents are very supportive of me, even if I'm old enough to think for myself. I do know that this can't go on forever, I'll need to learn to stand on my own feet and make firm decisions with the will to face the consequences.

Somehow I still can't confess what really is troubling me. I'm ashamed of my problem because it seems too trivial from the surface, but it delves deeply within.

I also find it disturbing that I feel longing for a friend these days. I've spent almost my whole life as a recluse, closing my ties within the family.

Dance in this world of miracles?

pagiging Batang 'X'

Unti-unti akong nahihigop sa isang mundong gawa ng imahenasyon. Isang mundong tila perpekto, at kung magka problema man ay kaagad nareresolba. Bawat araw ay nagtatapos ng may ngiting mababaksa sa mukha ng bawat karakter sa isang kuwentong mapagparaya. Isang mundong nakapaloob sa maliit na espapsyo sa aking ulo.

Ito siguro ay isang pananggalang sa malamlam na realidad ng aking buhay. Ang katotohanan ay nagiging mapanglaw dulot na rin ng aking katauhan, personalidad, at paniniwala.

Sa pagidlip lamang natatamasa ang kasiyahang walang bahid ng malisya. Lantarang naihahayag ang mga saloobin at tunay na nadarama.

Minsan tuloy ay naitatanong sa sarili, panaginip ba o realidad?

Sa ngayon ay hindi pa din ganap sa aking isip kung ano ang mas matimbang, mas makabuluhan, at mas mahalaga.